Hey guys, I'm at work so I dont know that if i'll finish but I just read all of yours and want to start while there all fresh in my mind. Here we go!
1. I am very proud of you mom
2. (mom dont read) we all sent her flowers to wish her congratulations so that you all know.
3. I really dont know what to say.
4. I agree on the boy thing
5. i dont have any good boy names though
6. so if it's a bou i'm just gona call in baby boy for a while
7. Any of you have any ideas?
8. Thank you guys for all the nice things you said
9. Doug you made me cry
10. Ross I love the fuck you to Geoff.
11. hearing you say that brings back a lot of memories
12. mostly you to fighting but hey tere still kida happy ones.
13. At least then I got to see you guys.
14. Jen- what are we gona do with you.
15. I spend a lot of time thinking about you and trying to figure out your mind and emotions.
16. I think I got it.
17. It's not at all that you are unstable or anything, I thinks its the exact oppsoite. You are so much more in touch with yourself that you experience everything so deeply.
18. Where as I only half pay attention to my feelings you think about yours and analize them. No wonder you see your imperfections. Nothing is perfect when put under a microscope. You are as close to perfect as I can possibly imagine.
19. We all need to take a step back every once and a while.
20. Look at the world from Emily's Eyes
21. Everything is so big!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
22. You are my idol(and mom)
23. Ross you are a great guy.
24. I cant believe that you graduated early and are going to live on your own.
25. I figured you would stay with mom till you were 30
26. I guess your not a little kid anymore.
27. Time to stop calling you buzzy
28. I would write about how great Geoff is but I dont think he will read this.
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31. Saved for Geoff. When you have some time let me know and I'll fill those in.
32. Doug I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. We've been through a lot of shit. You have dealt with so much in your life and yet you have always made time to be a great big brother. You are such a strong person
33. If I have a boy you need to teach me how to make him as strong and capable as you are.
34. No matter what life threw your way you still looked after all of us.
35. I have no doubt that you are a good boyfriend. Your future wife and kids will be very lucky.
36. Started out with lots to say but this is getting hard.
37. I miss you all.
38.My amazing almost husband is making good money these days and lets me spend it so I am hoping to come and see all of you soon.
39. I do have a spare room now so there is always somewhere for any of you to stay.
40. Geoff turnament capital- come visit me this summer
41. To my brothers- I want to thank you for giving me such high standareds for men. Very few can live up to you guys. But guess what?
42. I found one.
43. I want to take a minute to tell you about Corey.
44. He has become more than I ever hoped for.
45. we all new he would bee a good dad but he is so much more. He is the best dad ever.
46. Is it bad that I have moments where I am jelouse of my daughter for having such a great dad?
47. Corey takes such good care of us
48. He stands by me and all my changing ideas about life careeres and encourages me to anything I want.
49. He challenges me and complements me.
50. Doug I understand how you feel about being told to study.
51. Corey got after me for not going to class one night and it pissed me off so bad. But it gouse to show that they care and want whats best for us.
52.ross this is for you- relationships should help you grow as a person. They should challenge you, and inspire you to become the best person you can be.
53. Just look what I good man did for me
54. We all know where I was headed a few years ago then corey fixed me(or knocked me up whatever) and for the first time in my life I am proud of myself.
55. That felt really good.
56. I have never told myself that, or really felt that I am someone to be proud of, but I guess I am.
57. Thanks to everyone for helping me get here.
58. I hope I can be half the mom that our mom is.
59. Our family makes me want to have a big family and give my kids everything that I have in my siblings.
60. The work makes me thing I'm done.
61. Guess well wait and see.
62. Mom there is no words for you. You have given me the world.
63. Your strength Your courage Your Love Your ambition Your understanding Your warmth Your expectations Your strong words and gentle heart. Your everything
64. You deserve so much more than an award. You deserve the world. I hope that one day I can give you everything you have given me.
65. If there is one person in this world that I truly owe my life to it's you. You saved me more than one time, more that you will ever know. Thank you I love you
66. I'm tired
67. I'm tired a lot latley
68. Guess i better get used to that.
69. We went and got some really nice pictures taken at sears of my family.
70. I am so excited to get them
71. we did a lot of really cool belly pictures. Some of just me and belly, Some with emily and a beautiful one of just me and Corey. I really hope they print it. I was only wearing my sports bra so the lady's wernt sure if the lab would be okay with it.
72. I't's a black and white I am so excited about it.
73. I need your help.
74. I have no friends. Why dont people like me? I have lots of aquatiences but I have never had many good friens and right now I have none.
75. I dont really know what friends do?
76. Jen and ross you guys are great at making friends. HELP
78. Geoff you have some great friendship- how dose that work. How often do you call them? What do you talk about? How do you know when people want to be your friend? How can you tell the difference between them blowing you off and just being busy?
79. You'll be happy to know that I dont spend much time with Kathy anymore
80. The weekend in vancouver drove me nuts and i cant handle her anymore.
81. Is that my problem am I to picky.
82. See Jen we all have things were insecure about.
83. You just cant dwell on them.
84. I love my daughter.
85. She is so SMART
86. She sings the alapabete (thanks Katie)
87. I cant even spell alaphabet
88. She has such an amazing personality I cant wait to see the person she grow into.
89. I hope I am as good to her as mom has been to me.
90. The world makes me sad
91. But also happy.
92. Oh hello hormones lol
93. Geoff thank you for your idea about believing in faith and not religion
93. I have been batteling with myself latley about going to church or not.
94. That little saying has really easd my worries.
95. I dont need religion to live my life well. And I dont need to give up lazy sunday mornings with my family to sit in church and someone tell me whats good and bad.
96. I can teach that to mu kids, while in pj's on the couch.
97. I love chocolate
98. And I want a big 4x4
99. Hey look I did it
100. Miss you all and cant wait to see you. I think your boys camping trip is cool. lets also try the whole family for one weekend. All 5 of us, mom, all spouses, and kids
Hope you all enjoyed. Talk to ya soon
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wow. im speachless. its so different writting vs talking - much deeper some times. u are awesome - i totally love what u said about being almost too intouch with my feelings - incredible and i had never thought of it like that before.
the friend thing sucks - i can remember clear as day sitting at home in kelowna with rob on a friday night wondering why we didnt have any friends. i was 24 when i met jolanda and then 6 months to a year later we really got to know them and the derosiers and that group of friends started. since then i have had lots of friends and some really good ones - i am lucky. i think you just click with the right people, you chat whenever you run into them at first, find out that you have things in common, then one (often me) invites the other to something outside of where you normaly see them, it just goes from there. playdates for kids worked well for me up here. some of the moms i got along great with and stayed for coffee while the kids played, others it wasnt as comfortable so just the kids are friends and the moms only acquaintances. you really do have to have a common denominator though - work, school, kids... something that brings you together where you can chat enough times to know if you click then the "friendship" begins. its hard. i love corey - he is awesome and im so happy he completes you. i still remember driving with you to vanccouver before you knew u were pregnant and u asked me how i knew rob was the one... cause u thought corey was that person for u. so cool. i love u
Great list ash. I am amazed at the understanding that you have of some things. Just shows how wonderful a person you are. the flowers you had sent on behalf of all the kids are beautiful. Thank you. I am going to post a picture for you if I can do it. Don't have ross here to help so I'll have to figure out how to do it on my own. Love you. mom
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